Musings

I've come here many times to pen down my thoughts only to stare at an empty page. Often I have this urgent need to write. But I end up just putting my ideas away in some `compartment' till my heart bursts to let it out. Today I'd like to let something out. A school friend of mine passed away recently at the age of 47. We met when we were 16 and dated for a while. At school. Anyway, he became a pilot, got married, twice, and sadly met with an early death. At first I wasn't particularly sad when I learnt about his passing as much as I was shocked, but after a few days, some sort of sadness did seep in slowly. Maybe it was more of me reflecting. On how short life is and that death is inevitable. I can't deny that I did go back and reminisce the past. Of a part of me who was just about to learn how to `be with someone'. It was an awkward time and maybe sweet too haha. Ok, am not gonna go there.. As I was saying, it got me thinking about death, about living, about ho...

 I miss this space!

  28 years ago on the 9th of September, 1993 I boarded a plane along with 13 other excited girls and one boy. We were 18, we were young and little did we know that we were about to embark on a journey of a lifetime. I say that now because I think that’s what 6 years of studying in the UK felt like. You only get to experience that kind of thing once in your life. Surrounded by new friends, living on your own and forced to endure cold and hard winter days. Though I may exaggerate on the weather, I do recall one freezing day in a rented home I shared with 3 others when our heater stopped working. The horror! We stayed in bed under our duvet wearing our winter jackets until it got fixed. Of course there were summer days that cheered the whole of Britain and made people go round in flip flops while eating ice cream all day. And again, I exaggerate. But it was normal to see people  sprawled on the grass  having picnics in their sunglasses as they soaked in the sun. Most of us...

 How many times do you listen to a song till you get bored with it? The title of this post is inspired by a song I just heard on the radio yesterday which has made me return to it 4 times so far in the span of two days ;) So where are you now? What's been going on in your life? Has it been as eventful as mine? Did you manage to accomplish anything great? Or has life been pulling you in all directions and you're still trying to catch your breath? If you're in Malaysia like me we're probably in the same boat. It's another PKP -  a lockdown - working from home - learning from home mode.. I'd like to believe since we've been here before we're less stumped on how to handle it. Though it is even scarier now with the possibility of being infected with Covid 19 even higher, I'd like to believe we are all trying to remain positive. Hoping to be vaccinated soon, praying this will end. For good. On the brighter side, I'm proud to say I've added on to th...

Have you ever stared at old photos and reminisced Of a time when a smile could last for days And where the possibilities of tomorrow were endless When there was innocence, honesty, love and joy Spirit, strength and determination Warmth, closeness and tenderness  Friendship and camaraderie Moments that may never come again? If you do then take comfort that you once had all that That you still can Even if those moments only remain in an old photograph Forgotten and remembered Even if looking at them brings back so much Makes you miss the people, the person who once was The way it made you feel. The way it still does.

It was the hottest day of the year. Staring out the window feeling the heat rise brought a sense of restlessness in her she felt incapable of stopping. She had to do something. If she stayed cooped up in her apartment she could just explode.  Up on the roof was where it was coolest. That’s odd she thought. Am I not near to the sun? Once the breeze hit her face she started to breathe. Even though the wind was blowing her hair in all directions she paid no mind to it.  All she could hear now was his voice. - was clearing my files on my laptop last year and stumbled on this `100 word essay' I vaguely remember writing - by the way, it's already February!! - i finished a book (yay), I watched Bridgerton and like millions of other women, have now fallen for Simon, the Duke (sigh), and would love to get my hands on the novels.. - i think my almost 2 months of walking has loss me one kilo. ONE! That's all.. Gee.. this is exhausting.. - Ok, till another time. ps/ this isn't like...