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So here I am, almost 3 months since I last wrote and almost half awake trying to tap away some epic post to add to the list of ramblings on this blog.

I'm probably like my daughter who has been mastering the art of staying awake just so she can play with her toys and run around happily hiding behind curtains and testing Mama's patience and strength to stay awake too.. :p

Clearly the days of being able to stay up (even till 11pm!) have left me. It is during this time that I pray for energy and maybe some form of `youthfulness' to spring from me so that I can keep up with an active 2 year old. These are really the joys of motherhood.. and I feel blessed to be able to experience it ;)

Yet I still do savour the moments when she's asleep and I try and squeeze in all the time I can manage to do what I like. But mostly it's me doing things that I have to, rather than those that I'd like to do.. haha.. And that is life. Or more like an example of the choices we always have to make in life.

If only some students of mine were able to make the right choices. It would save us teachers the trouble of scolding and lecturing. It would save them from damaging their future. It would not lead them astray.

I say this in the most general sense. And yet I am imagining current problems faced by some of my students. And when I think of it, it boils down to the choices they've made.

Still, however sad it may sound, I choose to remain optimistic in times of darkness. Mistakes need to be made in order for us to learn from them. And bad choices can sometimes be the best choice we've made for ourselves. 

At some point, you can't help yourself from wanting to be the saviour of these troubled beings. But one can only do so much since you can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink...


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