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I'm afraid

Been doing a lot of thinking lately and realizing that life is short and all that. Things which didn't matter to me before seem to be a big deal now and I'm seeing things in a different light.. wow, how many cliche phrases did you catch back there? ;)

A lot of things that people don't do is because of fear. Afraid of failing, afraid of getting hurt, afraid of losing, afraid of what people say, afraid of the truth, afraid of feeling.

Truth is, I'm afraid sometimes. Afraid of all that.

But that's why there's those cliche expressions: Just Do It!, Take a leap of faith, to boldly go where no man(woman) has gone before... :D And.. If you never try you never know, believe in yourself etc..

Then there's also Istikhara - to seek goodness from Allah- because when you're getting all messed up thinking of the what ifs, go back to Him and seek his guidance. Admit it, we are not readers of the future. If we're afraid to decide on something, we should pray, for a better choice:

"O Allah! In Your Knowledge if this action is bad for me, bad for my religion and faith, for my life and end [death], for here [in this world] and the hereafter then turn it away from me and turn me away from it and whatever is better for me, ordain [destine] that for me and then make me satisfied with it."


May Allah guide me to make the right choices..

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