Musings

I was asked that question just now by a friend who was waiting anxiously for her husband to wake up from a coma. At that time he had been unconscious for almost 24 hours. With a blood clot in his head and some broken ribs and bones one cannot really say.. Doctors said not to put on any hopes. They also DIDN'T say he had no hope and neither did they say that there was.. Tricky situation. I answered, `Yes, they can happen'. God willing. Everyone dreads losing the one you love. I must admit it crosses my mind. Not because I want it to happen. But more because I am afraid of if it happens and also because you don't know how/when it will happen. I wrote about death before in here and so am not trying to repeat myself .. Yet I believe deep down everyone knows it will happen to them one day. It's just that not knowing when is what scares you most. Or maybe, knowing when, can also scare you. I can't stop thinking about what my friend was saying just now in between her tear...

4 days was all it could take me to stay away from facebook. I should have gone cold turkey for 7 days.. So, I cheated. I finally succumbed to my need to log in after realizing that there were people I couldn't get hold of without fb.. Which meant that the usual mode of communication - the handphone- was not so reliable in some cases.. What I observed of myself in the 4 days: 1. I was thinking about it everyday 2. I was listening to `facebook conversations' from others around me.. not because I wanted to but that's what almost everyone around me were doing 3. In my free time (that was usually used to go on fb): a) I played games on my mobile - i RARELY do this, b) I did housework I'd normally put off till later.. (bad..), c) I got to sit down and focus on hubby/myself/ the house/the cats/ life.. 4. I was also worried cuz I couldn't send messages/ wished ppl birthdays cuz i wasn't online.. Conclusion: I am an avid user . (a positive word than `addict') The ...

I'd like to try and stay away from facebook for a week (or more) starting today. Will be `observing' myself to see what I do when I'm not online.. That should include ym too I guess. For a change I'd like to live my life without that `force' in my life..

This week ain't over yet but I suppose as far as it has gone by, the highlights so far seem to be in the moments spent in good company.. If you have good food, there's no better way of sharing it but with those who matter. It is cliche, yes, but it is a well known fact that breaking your fast is way much fun when you get to gather with family and friends. Was blessed to have those moments this week once with friends and just last night with family and relatives.. As the saying goes, `the more the merrier'.. and indeed they were merry.. :) A funny thing I observed was after prayers we (me and my cousins) got to chatting and the conversations kept ending up with us comparing features on our phones.. what to install (iphone users.. hehe), how to play them, how do we do video calling and so on.. Kinda sad I guess as we are still a little obsessed with technology and therefore TALK about it when we're not using it.. Saw my parents kinda shake their heads in `amazement' ...

It is 15 minutes to midnight and I don't know why I'm writing when I should be sleeping. Tomorrow will be the first day of Ramadhan and am very happy it has come.. I often have high spirits during this holy month and vow to make my days in the month better than before. I just hope my `vow' to myself will see me actually making it better. A year ago I went through quite a tough time during Ramadhan and I felt that it was actually a blessing to be put through something like that in that month.. Yet I seem to remember me not really utilizing it to my best interest... And here I am still breathing on this earth and praise be to Allah for giving me another chance to see Ramadhan and to do as much good in it.. and may the `goodness in me' also continue after the month is over too..